(SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK.)

From Gackt's bus window… July 23rd Part 2

FORDEAR

Yesterday's live in Munich was the most climactic one in Europe.

The photography team were in there,
but the venue was shaking so much
I heard they couldn't take any photos.

It's easy to see what the specialty of German girls and boys is.

The girls are more cool than other places
But once you light the fire it never goes out.

A lot of the boys were shy.

Well, it doesn't matter what type your audience is,
because everyone will become one by the end of the show.

At any rate, at this show, both the temperature and people's hearts were hotter than anything.

I passed out 5-6 times during the show,
and each time I had to check where I was.

The vocalist's platform under my feet became slippery with sweat.
I've never sweated so much.
Sweat dripped off me to the point
I wondered if there would be no moisture left in my body

My trousers and shoes were like weights.

In order to regain my composure
so I didn't lose consciousness
I screamed at myself.

In a physical condition different to usual
my heart seemed like it was going to go somewhere.

I could see the faces of the men roaring in front of me.
The boy's who'd pretended to be cool up until the moment before
shouted for dear life.

There's no way I can faint…

My voice slowly faded from my body.

"I can go more!!!"

While I was firing myself up, I was tensing my legs to stand and couldn't feel anything below the knee.
If I lost my balance, I would fall.
They're absolutely human legs.

Just as we reached the outro of the last song, the switch flipped.

Everything in front of my eyes went dark.

When I gained awareness, YOU and Chacha were holding me up by the arms.

It's over…
Somehow, it's over.

I couldn't hear the voices of the girls screaming in front of me.
My ears had gone strange.
My senses wouldn't come back.

I slowly stood
and looked at the audience.

Everyone had both hands raised
and was applauding.

The sound came back a little.
From far away, the sense of sound came.

I wonder how long it was.

I could clearly hear the sound
Everyone, shouting my name.

I thought I was going to cry.

This much passion in a place I'd never been before.
My chest feels so hot…

I don't remember much after that.
Before I knew it, I was in my dressing room.

Worried, the staff came to peek in at me.

My voice was gone…

I'd used it all up.
I was truly exhausted.
I had no energy at all to move my body.

I somehow got changed,
but I couldn't stand up.

My feet felt like they weren't touching the ground.

I heard it was raining unbelievably outside.
Outside, there were many girls waiting in the pouring rain.
Cheering.

They were shouting for dear life in the middle of the rain.
They were all soaking wet.

When we got on the bus, all the members looked exhausted.
Somewhat spaced out.
It wasn't just me.

Everyone looked like they'd used up all their energy.

When I got back to my room and took a shower
it felt like the water was entering my body.
Little by little I became able to move.

The first hot night in Germany has ended.

And we've moved for 10 hours.
It's been a long time since I slept so much.
Before I knew it I'd slept 6 whole hours.

My whole body hurts.

I can't move my body.
No, it won't move.

Ahahaha.

What the hell was I doing to get to this point… I laugh.
It's a funny life, totally.

I can taste blood.
Spreading through my mouth.
I guess the bleeding in my throat hasn't stopped.

Well, I'm quite familiar with this sensation too.
For 15 years, this feeling has come around after shows.

The morning light is bright.

I'm alive.
I'm still alive.

Somehow, I'm happy.

In just a short while, Europe will be over.
When I look back it seems like the blink of an eye.

Tomorrow will be broadcast live on NicoNico.
You should be able to see how hot it is, and how worn out I am.

Life can be lived like this.

Even if the words don't get through,
we can communicate by heart.

I should be able to get you to feel that.

Tomorrow night's going to be huge.
I'm excited.

I'm going to go for a walk around the town.
It'll surely calm me down a bit

GACKT